Another
fabulous week is in the books. I am now
focusing solely on myself as I am marching onward after the disappointing
outcome with our situation at work. In
order to save myself I need to take really good care of ME and that is what I
am doing. I’ve hit that point, where
sadly, I have to stop caring so much. It
is especially sad because we are in a time in our lives where people need to care,
but at what cost? With the help of my
therapist I am effectively heading into the “I don’t give a $h!t” zone”. Moving forward in a friendly and positive way
is really the best solution, regardless of what that may become of the future.
Over
the last weekend I devoted a significant amount of time to revisiting and
researching options for my 5 year plan,
which is now more of a four year plan as nearly a year has passed since I
started. Travel ideas, relocation
prospects, housing options, all that fun stuff.
It reinvigorated me and got me thinking.
A lot! I also firmed up some
plans I have for having fun this year too.
I even added a few small things to my camp gear that I had lying around
the house. I am getting excited to be
outdoors and go exploring this summer.
On my last camping trip I found a Coleman
camp griddle leaning up against a tree.
It was super sticky with grease so I slipped it inside a plastic trash
bag and brought it home and stuck it in my garage. Monday morning I brought it in and sprayed it
down generously with oven cleaner. Using
my most aggressive scour pad I was able to remove all of the sticky greasy
residue and get it all cleaned up. Now I
have a beautiful “new” griddle to add to my gear and use next time I go
camping.
After
much thought I ordered a complete set of window covers for the Subaru. I had toggled back and forth between making
something or buying something, even going so far as to make window templates to
use as patterns. Once I sat back and
really thought about it though I decided it was not only going to be cost
prohibitive and fairly labor intensive, but as picky as I can be about certain
things it would probably be far less frustrating to just go ahead and order the
set. I am happy with that decision. Next payday I am hoping to get a 12V refrigerator. I am slowly ticking away on my list to off-grid
efficiency and future travel.
Because
I embarked on a pantry challenge recently I am working on clearing out the freezer on top of my
refrigerator. I pulled out enough items
to feed myself all week without much cooking at all. Mostly, I just reheated items and it was a
nice little break from cooking. I
enjoyed leftover meatballs in sauce, some stuffed bell peppers from the freezer,
beef burritos, soup and cornbread
muffins, smoothies, eggs and toast, etc.
It was a delicious week!
I know that feeling of recognizing I simply don’t care. The first few times I recognized it, it took me aback. It was as if after the final straw, I simply couldn’t react—not out of fear, I simply didn’t care, andI was just “done.” No emotion, either anger or remorse, just finality, a coldness, almost. It was actually sort of freeing. I did my best, it wasn’t enough, and I was through trying to jump through hoops. If it’s any consolation, I was told in one case that others, (though perhaps not your toxic coworker) recognize when the wall goes up, so to speak, and a sense of respect tends to materialize. People aren’t blind, even if they act it. They see what’s happening.
ReplyDeleteA belated thank you for the Salisbury steak recipe!
-Meg B.
It did kind of hit me hard and was like - Wow! It's too bad, but it's okay.
DeleteDid you sell Laverne?
ReplyDeleteNot yet.
DeleteWhat a great find on the griddle--they are expensive! DH got the bug to try making smashburgers, so I found a griddle for him on FB mktplc. It fit our small grill perfectly. And why spend upwards of $80 new when $15 will do? Free is even better, of course! :^)
ReplyDeleteI am trying to clear out our freezer as well. I am definitely NOT as organized as you are about it, but every week I root around and pull out packages to thaw and force myself to make meals with them.
I think it's fine that you have arrived at a place of "I'm DONE!!" with toxic co-worker. While you had energy to deal with her, it was a good learning experience for you. But ultimately, her shortcomings are not your problem, and you don't get paid extra to deal them. So if you're at the end of the road, so be it. I'm glad you are putting yourself first.
You tried, she failed; The End.
The griddle was a great find. So was your FB find. Thank you for your positive support. Greatly appreciated. XX
DeleteThat last comment was Sue. I don't know why I can't do signed comments...
ReplyDeleteI've been having issues with this platform myself. Hopefully it will resolve soon.
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