I'm Just Doing My Own Thing

 

It has been two weeks now since I left my part time retirement job and I am settling into my new routine rather well.  Simply put, I do whatever I please and I don’t do anything I don’t want to do.  I’m just doing my own thing without reservation.  I don’t care what someone else might think and that includes myself.  I no longer have a set of rules I need to follow.  I have quieted that voice inside my head that insists I need to be productive and accomplish something every single day in order to “earn” my leisure time.  I literally told it to go pound sand.

 

I go to bed when I’m tired and get up when I’m not and I’ve been sleeping like a log.  The only thing that wakes me up these days is a hot flash and I’m able to go right back to sleep in record time.  I feel rested and if during the day I get sleepy Jack and I will take a cat nap together.  He is showing me how and he is a very good teacher.  You can learn a lot from a cat.

 

I’m allowing myself to watch TV and enjoy it whenever I please.  I’m reading, working my crossword puzzles, writing more and gently planning my future with no particular timelines or deadlines.  Sometimes I just sit in silence.  I’m enjoying my coffee, tea, ice water and really good food at a leisurely pace.  I’m in no rush.  To do anything.

 

Within the first twenty four hours I dove right back into a passion project I haven’t touched since I accepted that job.  I’m back to working on my vintage doll rehabilitation and I’ve been busy giving these lovely old dolls a second chance.  So far I’ve finished one that was in progress and completed two more dolls and when I’m ready I will list them for sale in my Etsy shop or on eBay.  Until then they can sit and smile at me while I continue to work on their pals.

 

I’ve puttered in the garden, played with the kitties and the chickens, played cards, visited with my friends, gone out to lunch, done the laundry, puttered about the house, trimmed my bangs, packed my car for a camping trip, gone, hiked, walked and ridden my bicycle.  I’ve checked the mail, paid the bills, updated my spreadsheets, made a grocery list, went to the grocery store and to Cash & Carry.  I’m moving right along - at a leisurely pace.

 

Never in my life have I left a job without giving notice.  I didn’t do that this time.  I’ve always carefully considered the impact my leaving might have, especially with regard to my fellow co-workers.  I definitely didn’t do that this time.  In fact, it was the worst possible timing with people on vacation, a sudden family emergency and my scheduled commitments to planned activities.  I did it anyway with no reservations.  I walked away.  For the first time in my life I put myself first.

 

I’m no longer allowing someone to be abusive to me and someone else to allow it to happen.  Instead, I chose to take care of ME.  My heart is light, my mind is clear and I feel nothing but pure relief.  I have absolutely no regrets.  Mentally and physically I feel strong.  I’m moving forward with renewed spirit and determination.  I’m doing things for myself only.  I’m just doing my own thing and I’m happy.